Speciation

Lately,
I've been having
a very persistant
very profound
revelation

Which has caused
a complete
reevaluation
of what I define as true

And that is YOU!

Yes you
you are true
you are real
you are here and now and something i can feel

I can feel you inside of me
when you are halfway around the world
I can see you when
I close my eyes

I can feel your eyes
piercing
My soul bleeding
My orange glow
Emanating out of the lines

I’m fine
Just needed a second to..

Recompose all
The predisposed
Electrons
That have too many

Levels
To overcome

Its not fair
To them or
anyone

Else if
I had another
Chance
I wouldn’t do

What you think I was
Gonna do

Ballet

A Silhouette
A Pirouette
On Point
Past the point

Brilliant
Shimmering
Sensored
Dynamic

She sings to me
The most beautiful choruses
Without ever parting her lips

Stalagmites
Stalactites
Meet me halfway

You marval
You croon
I love you
I swoon

MUAH!*

Lips pressed
Against themselve
Against each others
Determined
To not part

Tulips strewn
Across landscapes
Across citiscapes
Blooming
Opening their hearts

The love that exists
Between those petals
Between those lips
A breath
Of fresh air

Seeking light
From external sources
Yet rooted deeply
In their resolve
Against paternal forces

But to me
The truest beauty
Lies between
The birds and bees

Oblivious
To their positions
Is the greatest
Feat of these

Life is grand
But without love
Flowers bloom
But will their seeds?

I know ours will
Theirs no doubt
Through the sunshine
Through the rain..

At the fork

At the fork
We brace ourselves
Close our eyes
And take flight

Silly of us
To think twice
Or otherwise

How naive were we
To think that we could
Somehow live our lives
Without each others nearby

I shudder
I shudder

This chilling breeze
Comes over me
Like a spirit in space

A space that is free
Filling the void
Warping the time

A contorting knee jerk
Reaction destroyed

Above all
There is nothing else
The absence of feeling
The flowing of nulls

So feathery now
A plume so to speak
And silence is golden
So landscapes are bleak

Above all
A force to reckon with
We are now
Try and break us apart

A train wreck in space
Delivering energy
To those that'll listen
To those with cupped ears

Let them deliver us now
From all that is evil
Lift our arm up forgiveness
Face all of our fears

Lift you veil and give up
All that is holy
Lift your arms up in defeat

How else will we ever
Feel the grace from above
Throw your pride out the window
Shatter glass in your wake

Walk on it to signify
Your sacrifice isn't fake
Cause pain it is real
As real as you want to make

Keep the reality distant
But close enough to not fall

Fwd: Handle with care

---------- Forwarded message ----------
From: Carlos <aproxia@gmail.com>
Date: Sat, Nov 7, 2009 at 6:15 PM
Subject: Handle with care
To: Carlos Tarango <aproxia@gmail.com>


Handle with care
In your hard-boiled shell
Scent of a woman
I caught the trail

Sent me for a loop
Head spinning in inside
Previous experience
Says take it in stride

Perfection on tour
Bones on display
Configured for sentience
And I'm experiencing delays

Ten times the heartache
Half as much time
Seen paradise in the distance
Mirages made me blind

Countless anomolies
Left me jaded for more
Dented not damaged
Are the cries I ignore

Sent a mission to space
To explore and destroy
A glimmer of hope
A shimmering ploy

The deseased with attest
The deceased will comply
The disarmed with conceed
The deprived will rely

Perfumed and primped
She walks through my door
Looking like diamonds
On the sea floor

Fwd: As I fly

---------- Forwarded message ----------
From: Carlos <aproxia@gmail.com>
Date: Sun, Sep 27, 2009 at 6:20 PM
Subject: As I fly
To: "menakshee04@gmail.com" <menakshee04@gmail.com>


As I fly
a mile high
Above the landscapes
Below the sun
I can think
Of only one

Lying cuddled
in my bed
Running around
In my head
Just a spot now
On the ground

She alone
Can give me peace
With her warmth
And calming ease
We are one
Never apart

Distance has
No bearance on
The closeness
That we share

I see her heart
Everywhere.

Light is a wave

When the waves
and oh, are there waves
so many waves

come crashing down

will you breath
the air that you need
help me believe

singled out
from an automatic crowd
shout it out loud

will the rays
disperse at your command
and will they understand?

You have filled my soul up
right up to the brim
or is there such a measure

It seems we'll never know

How fitting
that we're puzzled
the pieces are so big

and when they're put together
We make another piece

I can't seem
to find the words that'll convey
all that i feel

but yet i try
and try and try i will
until you see

what i have felt for so long
and now it manifests
your touch it is amazing
the safety you release

How fitting
that we're puzzled
the pieces are so big

and when they're put together
We make another piece

full of silliness
and belonging
that carefree state of mind

so as to speak
i've grown weak
my defenses are all down

so just take me

to the emptiness of space
to the anthem of your race
just to belong

have you heard?
we are at the brink of something big
greater that you and I
so lets read on

can you tell what your thinking
or what you dreamt about
please pour out all your heart
cause i need to fill up mine

At ease

At ease
With a cool calm breeze
Coming over you
Coming over me

It's true
The best things in life
Are free

In doubt?
Don't scream and shout
Wisper in my ear
I'll be here

In time
As Sands will settle in
You'll be in my arms
Once again

Don't fret
It's a sure bet
Permanence
Is hard to see

Trust is a must
when your heart
is an accessory

It's true
The best things in life
Are free

She shares the space
With the warm sweet embrace
To try and refrain
Brings pain

More often than not
I feel like I'm caught
In locked stares
brilliant glares

Landscapes of the skin
Fermenting within
Wants will implode
Rivers erode

Shaping our future
Forgetting our past
Lost in the present
We'll last
We'll last..

In fits of passion
In spurts of bliss
I know the core of us
is this

I love you dearly
I miss you much
When you're away I
Crave your touch

So don't go Away
from me and I'll be
Forever free
Eternally

And I won't, I promise
As if you need assurance
To try and refrain
Brings pain

Architects

Planning a life together
Full of beauty and awe
Inspired by the prospect
Of dreams fullfilled 

Dreams that linger
Like a setting sun
Giving way to others
We count each and everyone
 
Offering up our anxiety
To the gods up above
Seems like giving up
Seems like it but it's not

How can we be so sure
So little time spent
Not a second wasted 
Because it was meant

Fall and I'll catch you 
Fail and I'll be there
Flail and I'll follow
To the unknown with courage

Since when 
Forever 
For how long 
Until death
With who
Each other

Memories are palpable
But the present is tangible
Your stares are peircing
And your kisses are dizzying

With every breath
With every wiggle
With every bounce
With every ounce
Of life
Of love 
Of energy
I'll be there


  

Trepidation

If I let you 
Into my heart
Will you fit in 
Don't let's start

She lays the road 
Over the dusty sand
We pave the way 
To foriegn land

Give me a chance 
To show the world 
How you make me feel
I'd shout it out 

Never let you slip, 
Away!
Never let you slip away..

When will they learn?
That lifes not a book
Written by the sages
Way too many pages

But if they do
Will they retain
All the sacred knowledge
You can't learn in college

Never slip away...
Never let you slip away

So peaceful now
Wait till it gets out
That we are merely lying
All the justifying

Tighten grip and fly with me 
Where there is no gravity
We will float and just be free
Just you and me
Just you and me
Just you and me... 
 

Posterity

I see your image in
All that is visible
Even in darkness
Your scent is palpable

Leave you impression
On my wax mind
Send me to heaven
Down a tingly spine

And when we're together
Seems like forever
Time is irrelevent
When you stand still

Cielings are spinning
Felt the feeling of reeling
I'm caught in the undertow
And don't want to let go

So much for assertion
The thought of desertion
Has left me quiet empty
And hollow inside

A space that is fit
For a perfect creation
She goes by angel eyes
She goes by and I smile

As it turns out
There's more to this world
I know this now
Thanks to your love

It dances within you
It dances around you
You thwirl and flail
With potential abound

I've devised a devise
To capture your light
That eminates and radiates
From your shining soul

I'll cherish it forever
Marvel at it's beauty
Show it to our children
To keep them safe at night

Desaroyandose

I didn't come quite prepared
But maybe I can
Glean some insight
From your social queues

Give me some time
And I'll give you some space
Show me the line
And I'll save you some face

It's all an illusion
An optical trick
All smoke and mirrors
The fog it is thick

Beautiful blue hues
In the distance I see
Faint hints of design
Fermenting in me

Try and deconstruct
Layers of mold
Try and you'll find
The world's not half as cold

It's all an illusion
An audible click
All waves crashing violently
To generate blips

I hope that it
Isn't too late
To tell you how I feel
And feeling is fate

And fate it is destiny
Tainted and contrived
Behind all the magic
Outside all the knives

But this it is true
True and untouched
At risk of sounding cliché
I love you so much

Tears of the moon

As I strum her
Finely tuned chords
The resonance determined
Exploited
And explored

Undulating ripples
Like a light breeze
Or swelling of the sea

She can attest to
Purposely postponing
Certain ecstacy

With the moonlight
Casting shadows
On skin more than willing
To oblige

I reach my hand
To grasp hers
Her Hand
Her thigh
Her sighs

We know all to well the tragedy
The plays of ancient lore
Throw caution to the wind
And let's continue to explore

The dancing will determine
Our rythms are in sync
What will we tell each other
When we are at the brink?

Sensual is one word
But I can think of a book
Which words will truely convey the
The innocence you took.

It's almost high tide now
The writings on the sand
Will Disapear with water
So hurry take my hand

That moonlight it is subtle
Enticing to say the least
But the crashing waves it harkens
Shakes me beyond belief

So hold on
To what you have
Fight the laws of nature
Of risk the fate of sand.

Through Summers

Through Summers
And winters
Late afternoons
And now evenings

I've come to know you
As a gentle spirit
Full of wonder and awe

Loyal to the established traditions
Yet, curious of the possibilities

And now,
once again
As we Cross paths
Through the stormy weather

Your interests piqued
And your conviction
Like your knees weak
Are shaken

I've seen the change
Like the seasons
I've seen this change in you

But the change
As it turns out
Was within me

For these feelings
As they tend to do
Have evolved

Intertwined though it may seem
For all to see

Shall we for a second
Close our eyes in symphony

Listen carefully
As I paint a picture
Let me mutter these words into
your smooth, delicate ears

Without you
I wouldve never come to know
True beauty

Within you
I would always strive to
Justify regret

Around you
Seems there'll always
Be a network

Just unwind
And let traditions
Flail away

Story of theirs

So it shouldn't come
As any ones surprise
She likes to laugh
And he likes to see
the joy In her eyes

It's plain to see
What is
What was
And what could be

But alas
Those damned forces

So it shouldn't come
As any ones surprise
After all
Everyone but them
Had made up their minds

Perhaps
In another life
In an other land
In another time
Perhaps

And if the crinkle of the eyes
Weren't enough to signify
That this could work
In an other life

Just take
His willingness to hurt
Coupled with hers to feel ties
Yes, it shouldn't come, as no surprise

Attrition

Excuse me while I
Lift off your chest
Pardon me while I
Get out your way

Sorry for the
Inconvenience
Let me be the
First to say

I know it's hard
Belive me I do
But in retrospect
I'd do it too

My apologize for not
Keeping you in mind
And lamenting your de-
cisions too

Forgive me if I
Seem unkind
My jaded heart tends to
Not unwind

I know it's hard
Believe me I do
In retrospect
I'd do it too

Shame on me for
Not taking note
Of your breathing patterns
And syncing up

I regret to inform you
That I've moved on
I'll be waiting to hear from you
In my penitentiary

Appreciate the Fundamentals of still life

I didn't just see her
I felt her

You can slow down
Fast forward
Even pause life

But you can never rewind

Lost in the details
The Fourier transform
Online. 

For all to disect

Injest it

Digest it

Regurgitate

and the willing 

will do what they will

Break me up
Analyze me
A signal
Into my simple constieunt parts

Put me back together
Synthesize me.
However you see fit

If you think of me
Linearly 

Operating on the body of knowledge
Explicitly

Periodic phenomenon
Is everywhere
Periodicity 

in time
space and

space-time

Like how often I love you

Symetry

Twice your beauty

the contours on your face

Like how often you lead me astray

She waves at me
A periodic disturbance 

in space

Two theories forged forever
Frequency & wavelength

I fixed the time

And seen the periodicity in space

Wavelength

Reciprocal relatioship

It is what it is

I'll prolly get some shit tonight
I'll prolly get a head change tonight

Cause my brain needs some stimulation
Something other than what a playstation can provide
So I take it in stride

And I deconstruct the entagled web
Which has engrained itself in the ebb
of the fabric of our lives

Like bounty
I too absorb
The shit that has been force fed to us

By the media,
expedia
Expiditing our demise

And some may surmise
That it's all been contrived

for generations 

Starting with the hip gyrations

our ancestors knew the formula

but the rythm got lost in the conversation

Conspiritors don't sit around and wait
For change

They are the reason for a
paradigm shift

Call it what you will
It is what it is

Like it it not
We are the people
We are the world

We are the children

Sign of the future

So when you don't get my sarcasm

I will diagnose you with dementia

Says the one who has no empathy

to the one who doesn't give a

Train you to appreciate

the subtle nuance of comedy

Trade you in for an upgrade

and mentally work through the past

Someone cried out loud

others had their anxiety rip them apart

from the inside out

starting with the heart

He's just a friend

that's what they all say

in tadem 

like a rally rant

persecute me for not fitting in

when the room is full 

cry fire

and vacate the premises

altruistic in nature

selfish in practice

tripple your profits

trample on peons

Buddha

And I can sleep forever
If only it wasn't taboo
Once again
I've lived my life
With concern to you

To lead a double life
Is twice as fulfilling
Half as painful
When you lose it all

Seen the shadow of the trees
Felt the chilling of the breeze
Made my world
Just a little bigger
By getting rid of you

I don't have enough time
You only live once
fall twice
So die strong

Seen the red at the end
Of the tunnel of thought
As the blood flowed

restraint stowed

and passion prevailed

If only it wasn't taboo

I'd probably already have you

If only it wasn't taboo

Silhouette

Sorting through a sorted past
Too torn it turns into rags
Sorting though the shattered glass
I've torn my fingerprints alas

Sort of like a subtle dance
I'm tired of dropping hints
If I knew that this would last
I'd commit to it this instant

It's not to far-fetched to perceive
A tranquillizeds future
But sedated life is so blasai
When anarchy is so couture

So tell me this
How will we ever get along?
When happiness
Is just an overated song

A dead tree to me
Is an unfinished violin
And it's plain to see
That slothness is a sin

But why try
We're all gonna die
with each breath
Closer to death

Sold hold yours
Till I'm blue in the face
And when I pass out
Please blow out the lights

I got a haircut in the mail
The pungent scent I caught the trail
You're so much fun I wrote a letter
I think we're better off together

Cut off my ties

and sing me to sleep

the sirens below

make a deafening bleep

To caught up in life

To think of the thought

Of you making your way

To the nah, better lets not

Sever my pulse

One beat at a time

hold it and then

you'll sync up with mine

Perculating

Penetrating

Commiserating

All about you

Sionara

Seniorita

Seen it coming

All around you

Cultivating

Cults are mating

Killing beauty

All abound youth

Seat's Taken!

There's this thing that I love
that loves another
It has sent me on a downward spiral

Am I losing control
or controlled remotely
I am losing my soul
Oh so slowly

This obsession of mine
has consumed me wholly
It has sent me on a naked rampage!

Is this the end of the story?
Or Just another page in his story?
Can you tame the rage that you've given me?

Only you can tame the rage that you've
given me..
given me...
given me....

I can't see clearly now
That the pain is gone
I can see all obstacles in my way

They will keep us
At arms length
Away from the peering eyes

That can't wait for a scandal
To materialize

Seen it all before
In a different life
Married twice before
In a different light

Should we...
Purposely
Jeopordize the
Order of the world?

Will we...
Constantly
Monopolize the
Beauty of nature?

Have we...
inadvertently
digitized the
interaction of society?

Sentient beings
Are being ignored
Just cause they feel pain
Doesn't mean we can explore

The limits of our imagination
Have yet to be discover
What we'll think of next
To kill one another

I have fed all addictions in my head

Learn to Forget

You promised me the end
And this is how you repay me
Get it over with now
This worlds far to filthy

To enjoy a day on earth
Goes directly against the
Fundamental flaws
That I have learnt intently

Seeing what it is
For what it is we're guilty
And we shall pay two-fold
Yes we shall pay quite dearly

With life and liberty
And justice for none
Forget the lessons learned
And concentrate on one

Ioata of truth
Buried in a sea of lies
Light is trapped inside matter
So lets make our cells divide

Nebur

I wish you knew
Maybe you do
Protecting your interests
While mine fall apart

I project myself
On your slate which is taken
Far beyond broken
Shattered my heart

Seeking affection
Crying to sleep
Fearing rejection
Secrets to keep

Moments of clarity
Clouding my sight
Blurring reality
Ignoring what's right

Spark it up
All over again
On the 4th if July

Fire works
on my thoughts
But none in the sky

Wish you knew
Maybe you do
But you choose to ignore
To protect me

No news is good news

Ominous clouds
Lumming over my head
Not just a figure of speech
Somewhere, someone is dead

The story's to dark
To tell in the night
And your far to bright
To tell you what's right

Take a moment to ponder
Our floating in space
Take the time to disarmor
Your stubborn facade

I admit I'm a failure
I pity success
When the cloud comes to get me
Who'll take over my debt

To ring in the new year
I shot at the sky
Just then it hit me
That angels can fly

Like a pound of bricks
The weight on my chest
Flippant and cocky
I dealt with the stress


Not a moment to soon
Had it under control
Drowning with noise
And I'm losing my soul

See the end in the shadows
Work with them they'll supply
All that is holy and righteous
And what is not we'll deny

Eco-Friendly / Self Involved

Upon your arrival
I conceded my defeat
2000 years in Babylon
Fermenting at my feet

Now you're all grown and talented
And concerned with your looks
Why don't you quit teaching me to dress
And concentrate on books

The drugs money is piling up
But not one spent in vein
Sounds of past and present
Are passing with the train

You lift me up so violently
And set me down so sweet
Producing manufactured goods
That are just too hard to eat

Has there ever been a time when
This all made perfect sense?
The pieces fit together
And gods motives weren't selfish

Will there ever be a time when
This'll all come crumbling down?
The puzzle's impossible
And whirlpools spin upside down

Conservation of energy
For what
Existing an eternity
For whom
Pursuing maternity
What for
All stored in the psyche
For good

Going 90 on the 80

Zooming down the freeway
Looking for some leeway
Undermined by automatic
Faster than the airwaves
All I get is static

And I'm
Pushing up on 90
All up on the 80
Hauling ass like truckers
What's my name mother fucker

Searching for the chota
No I don't have motta
Yeah you know my MO
When I see the zoro
Cruising like a lolo

Now I'm
Swerving thru the pockets
8 ball last to call it
Cruising up on triple
Chase it with some coca
No I'm not an alcoholic

Some of that liquid courage

Driving down to LA
405 the valley
See you in my rearview
No you cant cause I can make you
Disapear like voodoo

Fool I thought that you knew
How I do what I do
Guess I was mistaken
Yeah your spots the one I've taken

Laugh it up
The social grease
You do the same shit
Expect me to appease

Salmanela
never seen a betta
way to reproduce

shall i eva
find the darkest way to
not call a truce

sobriety seems
like a welcome reprieve
from a life
i've come to loath

fear and las vegas
have always been so
grave

that when i'm all
alone they
never come to see us stray

Continuum

Hidden with the clothes surrounding
muffling the sounds of the pounding
opportunity abounding
compounding

Forwarding my thoughts in an email
Awaiting a response from a female
I'll prevail
fail

Seemingly abrupt is my lifetime
I'm not synchronized to the lifeline
Buy time
Fine

Charity a cause for the selfish
Motives understood by the shellfish
Satellite Dish
niche

Somewhere someone is yet to discover
the security of a lover
under cover
over

Beer and Weed

I'm tired of smoking
Why do i gotta do shit?
Fuck this Generation

He steals your epiphanies
It's fucking cold as hell
Fuck this Generation
Fuck this Generation

The room is dark as hell
and I can't see shit
and
I can't see shit
and I can't see shit
and I can't see shit

Fuck this generation
Telemetry is streaming
And the levels rise

I fucking
And I don't like rice
And I don't like rice
And I don't like rice

Fuck this generation
Fuck this generation
Fuck this generation

And I don't like rice

July
the month that we met
It seems so far
But in fact its yet to come

I lie
To get you in bed
And then you lie
You lie that you have cum

We lay
Together as one

Local anesthetic

Severe apathy
I'm dying
fo find something to live for
Its never enough

Put me in a shelter
And feed my addiction

Been dysfunctional so long
That it feels normal
Living as an outcast
Breeding the repeat

IN Progress

We have spiders in our throats
You can hear it in our voice
Heavy burden in her heart
The illusion of choice

Cobwebs in our ears
Catch all the lies
Ringing of the fears
Signals our demise

Apathy and energy
Correlated from the start
Correlated from the start!

Klinging to a sense
of belonging
Feelings to immense
to absolve me

Killing is an act
of betrayal
Atrophy will and must
prevail

Measured with a stick
that you widdled
obtuse and thick
like your logic

A Political Song

It's not about you
It's not about me
Not about anybody
it's about everybody

You pray with the father's
that molest your children
They spray with their guns
and arrest your children

I stay cause it's a matter of opinion
Nobody cares whether we wake or sleep in

Keep it up
See what'll happen
The drug will run out
And I'll give you a slap in

The face of the youth
and the smirk of your elders
The stench of the ploy
Keeps the vultures among us

What if I don't
and say I did
What if you take
The highest bid

Take me to town
Let's paint it red
We'll unstain the sheets
on Jesus' head

You never understood the severity of the situation
But what does it matter now that its too late
I involved the security of our little nation
The problem was solved,
but now its too late

The sound of paranoia
echoes in their heads
As the pound of marijuana
keeps her in her bed

She told me she was quiting
But I don't believe
The content of her person
Or what's up her sleeve

You see me love you
But then ask why
You take me dead serious
And then you die

Ask me to lie
(What if I don't and say I did)
Tell me the truth
(What if I take the highest bid)

He always hid it so well
And to this day they don't konw
To what it is I can't tell
If you look at him it won't show

Can you relate
Can you relate
Can you relate to his plight

If you can relate
If you can relate
If you can relate
Your fucked up

So many clues that point to nowhere
And paths that lead to dead ends
He fantasized on going somewhere
Swallow your pride and go there

Hustle, Bustle
Laminated with a sea
of Pompus, pretentious
Hulabaloo

To consumed with oneself
to consume anyone else
To consumed with the future
To appreciate the present

Just want to drive to sleep
Just want to strive to sleep
Just live to try to sleep

Power struggle
Spending fruggle
Sleeping generously
Sweeping vigorously

To enraged with the core
to scratch the surface

Dead skin cells
flake away
Parasites invade away

Breaking ground
introduced into the
blood stream

Write shit like
every single day
And when I came today
I came to play

Life ain't liven
If you ain't havin' fun
Live for the truth
and the lies I put to run

Seems like someone always got it out for me
I close my eyes to dream
But that's when I really see

Don't think just do
that's how I live my life
Don't love just live
That's how I met my wife

I'm not, I am,
I will not, I will

You can't tell me what to do
Say hey!
They only way
That's how, that's how

She's back
Back from the grave
Back for her slave

Here to stay
Say Hey!

Missed, but not forgotten
Missed out on what life has brought and
aprox
The last time I wrote
you laughed
The last time we spoke
You cried

The last time I came
You left
the last time I write
I die

Trivial

Does what he can
For who he could
Lives for the now
Knows no better

Tries to please
Everyone but him
Ends up broke
Good luck with the beg

Sold all his goods
Moved out of town
Founds some new friends
Or what you could call

Fell for the fruit
Fruit did what it could
Pain in the belly
Fruit it was good

Didn't regret any
Never took back
Never gave in
Never gave slack

Now he's a wreck
Lives in the past
Cycles will consume
All in it's path

Sonambulo

Caught in the undertow
It's hard to escape
Cause when you're drowning
the last think you think of is to think

Caught in a nightmare
It's hard to escape
Cause when your dreaming
that last think you think of is to wake

Up your missing out
on the rest of your life
it's now done
passed you by

So much for that

The Immediate World
(The Rapture)

Technology...
Is the analogy...
THAT BOTHERS ME!!!

Lobotomy...
The ancestry...
That SETS ME FREE!!!

That sets me free...

I only have eyes...
For.. You...

Autonomy...
Is the sodomy...
That WE SELDOM SEE!!!

Anarchy...
The symphony...
That COMFORTS ME!!!

It comforts me
To no end.

Pending Cancellation

Here and there
Now and then
I need some time
To make amends

I don't know how
I don't know why
I keep on FUCKING up my life

Try to fight
It's hard coded
Lock em up
It's for the greater good

Divine inspiration
Self righteous manifestations
Controlling our every move
Paralyzing our fortitude

Stocks Crash

In the electronic age
I'm left with my stock in stationary
I walk with dinosaurs
I see the waves

They dumbfound me
Just as I lay
Just as you found me

Smells open doorways to the past
Playing your emotional flute
wearing your vital sign suit

Evolve or revolve
Thats the old axiom
Atoms don't see the bigger picture
If there ever was one

Destroy the bad ones
Employ the enlightened
Conspire to overthrow
The establishment

Big Bang

Concentrated goodness
Almost unfathomably simple
Manifested fantasies
Fascinated with my dimples

Pouring all my heart out
Into a well of understanding
Before we even start out
Contemplate the landing

Beautiful is not enough to
Encapsulate your beauty
Your happiness is not a question
My quest is now my duty

Seems like an eternity
because I will it so
And dwell on the minutia
of the eb and flow

Losing track of the bigger picture
Is how i find the core
To swirl into the vortex
of your inner world

Like a spring loaded trigger
I get pulled in
to the energy it releases
there is no end

Was there ever a beginning?
We might never know
Whats important is to ask
Why we know, what we know

Pure love knows no bounds
So why then do they push
From within a heart sound
Which burns till it hurts

Fundemental Questioning

Who sends the wind?
What is the wind?

Where do we go when we die?
Where are we when we are alive?

Why do we die?
Where are we from?

Damn my conscience
Damn my conscienceness

Damn society for looking down on me
With pity

The right circumstances
The right set of chemicals
is all we are
is all we'll ever be
is all, is all, is all
all is, all is, all is

everything everything everything
nothing nothing nothing

Dirty Slate

Barren surroundings
Are hauntingly peaceful
With no room for shadows
They speak to the wind

Can't wait for the start of
The new and forgiving
A new bright beginning
Can't wait till it ends

Some say its been here
all along
For eons I've tried
to stay strong

The force it beckons
compliance
To form a much stronger
alliance

Like drones we all march
To the beat of the drummer
It gets louder and drowns out
The sound of our fear

One Night Stand

I'm going to put all my energy towards you
Concentrate on nothing
Have to make the most of this
Circumstantial breeding
There's a scent of love in the air
My nose is plugged and runny
Talk to someone who really cares
And for God's sake
Quit Bothering Me!

Full House

He keeps his balance
As the forces of nature push him towards her
She never argues
As he tortures and hurts her

And he play the cards he's been dealt
Represses all the feelings she's felt
Sorry for being so literal
I used to be more poetic

Now you're the one being critical
Everyone else is just pathetic

She holds her breathe
as he approaches her
He never questions
How it must effect her

And they create archetypes to cope
Repressing all their feelings with dope

I woke up last night
Dreaming of you
We broke up last night
It couldn't be true

My life is a dream
Too good to be true
I'm not what I seem
But neither are you

Send me pictures of your life
Make sure to get doubles
Mend me up within your plight
If its not too much trouble

Constant

Now
This is a rhyme
that has a reason
Sally told me of the right way

Like the magnetic forces
that bring us together
And the forces of nature
That push us away

I can write for years
in my fish tank life

Cavities and toiletries
and meaningless phrases
that create vivid images
upon my head

I've never had no pity
and I never will
Until I'm dead
Until I'm dying

Until I"m decomposed and or frying
That's what I said, yeah
That's what I said said yeah yeah yeah

I know the grass is green
I know your dad is mean
He doesn't understand
Something that rhymes with ean

This last verse
Just as the first
Is the same
As all the rest

Spirituality speaks for itself
But we refuse to listen
Instead we give in to our doubts
ironically we're division

Simplify the living
And you'll gets what's coming

Who's on the scene?
And does it matter?
Question what we mean

You get like this every day
And I never get a reason
Why do I always think this way?
Is it cause I'm out of season?

Whether I decide to fight or take flight
it's up to me
the court rules it insanity

Weird and Wired

Hold up man
I'm inspired

I just drank some coffee
So you know that I'm wired

I've been sitting here
Thinking up a rhyme

You know it'll come
Just give it some time

Hope, patience,
alot of know how

Cause I don't smoke crack
doesn't mean I won't sell

State of the Art (Man is 5)

Its 4:54
when I hear a knock on the door
I don't turn to look
I don't care anymore...
There’s a man on the tube
talkin' ‘bout the state of the nation
but I can't hear what he's says
cause I dont get the station

I heard a gunshot last night
It went in one ear
and out the other
I'm only interesting when I'm alone

It's 5:55
when I take a nose dive
There's no sense in living
If you're no use alive
Talking heads spew their guts
And my stomach screams in hunger
Wish I could feed the world
All the lies that were muttered

I heard a gunshot last night
It went in one ear
and out the other
I'm only interesting when I'm alone

It's 6:56
When I pick up some chicks
We hit up a club
and wax voluminous 'bout flix
The rain in the sky
Makes it hard to see heaven
Better head out
Cause it's damn near seven

727 

I flew my ship up to heaven
don't giva shit
i'll sell my soul just to fit in
There are these two trends 

that depend on me 

pretending not to care
so as to not disappoint those 

with vested interest and flair

With her priorities set she could be a big star
at least that what she thinks
SuperNova death car

Sing it for me
tada ta da ta TA DA DA DA
TADA tada ta ta


I took a photograph this morning
The light captured for posterity

tada ta da ta TA DA DA DA
TADA tada ta ta

Paragon

It ain't the size of the brain
its how you use it
And the way I choose to
use it abuse it

Cause I work all my life
And now i'll play dead
I wanna shot myself
15 times in the head

Cause I look at myself
and can't find the meaning
Take my wife please
I find her demeaning

I get FRUSTRATED
I can't explain myself
My eyes are dilated
Directly correlated to my fading health

Radiation
Energy so destructive
Harnessing its power
stabilize

Realization
Epiphanies abundant
keep em to yourself
Selfishness

Procrastination
Leave if for tomorrow
Wasted potential
A cleansing

Superficial
Hide your true emotions
Put it on for others
Popular

Potential
Pardon the expression
Seek the truth
Questions

Visceral
Taking no direction
Pave the path
Primitive

Addicted to the past
Ashamed of the future
Predicted my demise
Your wounds I will suture

Never have I
Never will I surrender
Make me understand
Make me love you tender

Selling out for hope
A future bright and honest
All strung out on dope
Your memory the fondest

Keep you to myself
No one will remember
You as much as me
No one's fit to tender

Fractals seem so bland
When your away with others
Leave me by myself
and my rebellious brothers

Someone will rescue us
from this prison of thoughts
They will not like what they see
But then it won't matter

Open up the cell with their compassion
Killing all the guards with their passion
Bury their bodies
6 feet deep
6 feet deep
forever put away
in a grave
of
dementia

Wear it on your sleeve
Sell it for affection
Mama will retrieve
all that's right and holy

Keep in in a bottle
for all to gawk and wonder
Ever will we sleep
through lightning and the thunder

Bliss is ignorant

When I ponder
what could've been
what was
and what is

I wonder
how this could've happened
love lost
Ignorance IS bliss

But,
is it really better
than not knowing at all?

I digress

Even doves cry
but their tears are silent
I can hear your whimper
and it shakes me
so violent..

Could this be the end
some say a new beginning
I beg to differ
I beg
I beg
Down on one knee
with the utmost
sincerity

You

You don’t know how much you mean to me
You have no concept of us

You dwell somewhere between the syn ap ses
And the live that yet to come

You arrive at the stoke of midnight
But you don’t know where you’re from

Sleep in the valley of death
Search where there’s nothing left
You fall apart when you hear my heart
You

I see an object and it disappears
I'm a realization of your fears

Currents overflow
When there's no such thing as no
Forget about what you know
And concentrate on what you know

This is the game you play
This is the game you play
This is the game you play

And you play it so well

The Offering

I can’t afford a lord
Oh lord I can’t afford!
My head caused me to sin
So I cut it off

And if you go down to the roads I’ve been
What I consider fun you might consider sin

And if you stick to yours then you will find

I can’t afford a lord
Oh lord I can’t afford!
My eyes caused me to see
So I gouged them out

And if you go down to
the roads I’ve been
What I consider fun
you might consider sin

But if you stick to yours!
then you will find
What you're looking for..
What you're looking for...
and nothing more

In a No-Name Town

Deep in the city,
Where the ceilings are low..
and the kids are high…

Don't have no pity
and I never will
'till I die…

I often wonder why?

It ain’t no wonder
that our kids have kids
and we can fly…

I often wonder why

I can’t get ahead
Cause I’m so far behind
When I seem to get free
I get fined…

This is monotonous and monotonies bland
I fed a kid and she bit my hand

I often wonder why

I thought of something
But It got stored
In a place I can't find

Bring me water from underneath your earth
never lead me on to your scheme
Show me love and I won't close my eyes
Every particle is part of my dream

Shed your skin
Breathe you in
I'll hold you in
And never exhale

Concentric

Cutting corners so much your working in a circle
Cutting of the blood supply to my head it’s turning purple

Ooh, I know these things are hard to swallow
Umm..Choke them down they’re easily digested
Uhh.. I’m thinking only of tomorrow
Cause a pain in my neck is a thought that’s neglected

The sick thoughts In my head are only getting sicker
And the thin line between love and hate is slowly getting thicker

Ooh, I know these things are hard to swallow
Umm.. Choke them down they’re easily digested
Uhh.. I’m thinking only of tomorrow
Cause a pain in my neck is a thought that’s neglected (echo)

Look at the bigger picture

get out of your tunnel

while you still can

take a step back, relax and realized

what you've got in store for yourself

you're killing yourself

you selfish slug

Cynthia

She has the eyes I can really see myself in

My girl she’s just one of a kind
Don’t want to leave her alone she’s mine

Her body has bloomed so beautifully

My girl she’s just one of a kind
Don’t want to leave her alone she’s mine

I like the way her skin depicts her mood

My girl she’s just one of a kind
Don’t want to leave her alone she’s mine

I know I long for her, but will she miss me?

(Gasp for air. guitar solo)

She has the body I can see myself in

Leave her alone she’s mine

She has the body I can sink my teeth into

Leave her alone she’s mine

Cinderella

Sent a letter up to the sky
balloons pop and litter the the ground
return to sender yeah PIGS DON'T FLY
but they float a little around

theres a slight chance of RAIN
20% to be exact
guaranteed to be let down
come falling down
crashing down

bigger they are
harder they
FALL...

Cinderella is my girl friend
Seen her ass sleeping around
put her in her place yeah that shit don't fly
put her god mother in the ground

Will some one please EX-PLAIN
what i'm doing here
Personally I think your to blame
instilling lies and fears

having a hard time
pretending to be
what I am
not

Have a harder time
figuring out
what I should
be

none is the hardest
as discovering what
I want to
be

god help me
god help me
GOD HELP ME

to see the light
is divine
stare too long and go blind

Emergency Room

Does she notice me
as I glance at her blue
eyes that awaken
a passion lay dormant
too long

Every second that passes
agitates the tension
when she smiles I tremble
I just might erupt

Should I bottle it up and
risk the inevitable
causing unknown destruction
to all in my wake

or, do I avoid confrontation
pass the burden to others
Have I lost all perspective?
whats real and whats fake?

Emit me
commit me
cause we all know
I can't do it myself

Permit me
to commit the
unspeakable act
That has tormented brain

What was once wholesome and beauty
has become heart-ache anxiety
what was once planned, peaceful new future
dark distant past

Past, Present, Persistent Presence

Like a pulsing headache
your presence persists
not audible or visible
but present non-the-less

nagging, biting, pulling at me
with relentless fervor
unstoppable and obstinate
like a fervent fever

Never have I felt a feeling so horrible
or maybe I repressed the memory
a coping mechanism

The more I fight
The bigger it gets
As I try to observe
it floats away

I feed it with fantasy
Keep it alive with my blood
Parasitic in nature
So I open the flood

Bleed!
Bleed!

Relieve the pressure the resides in me

Give in!
Give in!

Let it live
A life of its own...

The Meaning of Life

The meaning of life is derivative
and women are still an enigma
I wouldn't mind being primitive
If it weren't for the uhhh.. stigma

Someone denied my existence
It doesn't matter it's relative
I've got to admire persistence
and don't believe for the hell of it

And am a microwave
You are the pace maker
and am a tidal wave
You are the earth shakerrr

Cut me and I'll bleed and coagulate
I have a father she's surrogate
viruses, diseases will dissipate

I am the white you're the red platelet
I am the white you're the red platelet
I am the white you're the red platelet

I am a microwave
You are the pace maker
I am a tidal wave
You are the earth shakerrr

I see an object and it disappears
I’m a realization of your fears
Currents overflow when there’s no such thing as no
Forget about what you knew
Concentrate on what you know.

The meaning of life is derived by us
and women are still enigmatic
I wouldn't mind being primed for death
If it weren't so god damned dogmatic

Someone denied his existence
It doesn't matter he's negative
I've got to admire your perseverance
and don't convert for the hell of it

I am a willing slave
You are the slave driver
I am an empty cave
You are the cave dwellerrrr

This is the game you play
This is the game you play
This is the game you play

and you play it so well

S.H.U.

You lock me up and desensitize me
You set me free but my life is shot
Why do I think that the world's against me
I sold my soul but the farm is bought

You managed to turn me into a robot

Whether or not I'm an introvert I'm leaving it up to you

You mock me up and then you ostracize me
You keep me hidden from a life of truth
Why do I feel like like you plan my atrophy
Tell me I'm guilty until I'm long in the tooth


I'm as good as I get
I can't get better

You lock me up and dehumanize
You set me free in a sea of sharks
Why is the world against me
I sold my soul but the farm is bought
massage my soul in the firmest spot
castle of assholes and I won't get caught

I'm as good as I get
I can't get better
I will get better
I'm not as good as I get

Persistence of Memory

I breath in Einstien's last breath
I can taste the smell of death
If theres anything I hate more than losing is to win
I can't sell my soul in the black market

So I look beyond you and I see your aura
Aurora Borealis
falling like alice
cataclysmic catalyst
adopted burders
wire rivers
resistor cities
and primitive robot societies

Just the thought of it makes me quiver
shiver
transplanted liver
delivered at the speed of light
in a crowded room
with no room to play in
no one to blame
acid rain ain't a shame
and that's when you interrupted me

You’re giving me bad vibes
I break out in hives
I’m saving bad lives
Still the roaches survive
I’m better of alive

Because in the afterlife…
There’s no reincarnation
Sub atomic station
Sleep deprivation
Cell degeneration
Disregard for feeling
and that’s when you interrupted me

da da ta ta ta
Don't talk to me
I don't want to hear it
SHUT THE FUCK UP!
La la la la, la la la la, la la la la, la la la la

Vicariously

I'm lying by the skin of my teeth
I'm dying bye the fish on the reef
I'm floating underneath the beneath

I'm sinking
I'm sinking
I'm sinking

I'm lying by the fish on the reef
I'm trying not to give you relief
I'm hoping to keep

On sinking
On sinking
On sinking

I'm flying underneath the belief
I'm trying hard not to give you relief
I'm trying not to sing out of tune

I'm syncing
I'm syncing
I'm syncing

You're lying just to give me relief
I'm trying not to give into belief
I'm flying by the skin of my teeth
I'm sunk

Transsubstantiatio

I married faith
she divorced me
we kept together
sporadically

Our kids grew up
hope grew up strong
felt out of place
in this same song

Angel joined the team
caught the big catch
head of his class
head of white trash

now i see my kids
and we go to the games
and we drown our fears
with tears of shame

but i never want to see that bitch
faith
faith
faith
oh faith can you get out of my life
take your fucking memory out of my head

Never knew the sun could be soo cold
Ever since you blocked the rays
Never seemed to bother me before
Now I sit and wish for better days

Not enough

I had a girlfriend..
that used to love me
with all of her heart

she had a vision
of our future
that was beautiful
and had wedding bells
and children playing
and dinner parties

but she had a vision of her present
dancing and singing
and there was a fog

that fog hid me
hid me in the background
sitting in a lonely table
nervously thwrilling a napkin
wondering where she was?
When was she going to come back?
Was she happier out there?

Apparently so.
the somber realization set in

she still loves me
a different kind of love now
without children
without a sense of belonging

Her ring was too tight
and my ring slid off my hand

but i picked it up
she helped me
we awkardly grasped it together
and put a necklace through it
and placed it around my neck,
closer to my heart

Ask not what your country can do for you
just take it
But what you can do for your country
just fake it

Coming at you with a pyroclastic flow
distorting the image
of what you think i know
straighten you out
with a chiropractic blow

cauterizing limbs and
I spit blasphemy
its up to you to decipher

Fledgling Love

I won't
I won't
I won't
Do anything that

Keeps us
keeps us
keeps us
Apppparrrt

Promise
that you
will keep your promise to me

And I
Will not depart

Temporary Sanity

The background seems so stagnant
and the forground moves so slow
why must I question the established

Knowledge is nothing
Novel is tho

believing the masses
complacency costs

the lives of our children
forever are lost

rules were all meant to be broken and bent
but old habits die hard and are prone to repent

Trust

Here is a poem.

The touch on my hand
that melts my soul
and the distant forced smile
that rocks my world

few, faint and far between
the scars of another
are best hidden not seen

deliver me..
deliver me
deliver me
from evil

rest your head
on my arms
lay your burdens
on me
i yearn for your touch
sensory.. symphony

carry me.
carry me..
carry me...
don't ever let me down.

Taken for granted

Cleanse.. your self from the world
clean.. your lens by yourself

dip you head in the water
drown your sorrow forever

Even if you can see dust forming planets
or watch the birth of a star
would your appreciate the beginning
or just sit and wait for the end

would... you... believe?
would... you... believvve?
I would.

pen to paper
heart on sleeve
you took my trust and
now I believe

A comfort level
in a zone
put up your guard and
left all alone..

But I don't blame you
your the same as I was
and now i'm righteous
now i'm better than you are

but who's to say that
what i am is really right
I now see cleary
now that I bow my head in shame

Breath... the air through the filters
Sneeze... and see what comes out
Our lives connect withouth a pattern
A mesh without a given path.

distorted perceptions

Excited particles that give off radiation
translated signals that stimulate my mind
unwanted noise enveloping my conscience
irrational decisions forever change our lives

rash, impulsive actions affecting my surroundings
disturbing other satellites
and changing their straight paths

manipulated wills will
wallow in confusion
until they catch a glimpse of
whats dampening their strings

yet, still you stay together
ignoring the bad vibe that
when coupled with your cadence
a cacophony sound

The band will keep on marching
oblivious to rain when
seemingly from no where
the sound will cease and
string'll break

Never say never, that's what I always say
Impressed with your beauty Impressed with the way
You manage to function in spite of the way
nay, you wonderfully triumph to spite them and say

Sympathy, for those who've come before me
Empathy, for those who I surround
and a Heartfelt Love, for those yet to come

Sympathy, for those of you below me
Empathy, for those who I surround
and a Heartfelt FUCK YOU!, for those of you above

Oh immortal sentiment
of dubious delight.
With a blade to cut the tension
drive it in so tight
since the summer sun sets softly
serinading us with light
harkening the moon beams
till the end of night

727 I flew my ship up to heaven
don't giva shit
i'll sell my soul so i'll fit in

There are these two trends that depend on me pretending to care
so as to not disappoint those with vested interest and flair

With her priorities set she could be a big star
at least that what she thinks
SuperNova death car

Sing it for me

tada ta da ta TA DA DA DA
TADA tada ta ta

It’s 4:54 when I hear a knock on my door
I don’t turn to look I don’t care anymore
There are these people on the tube telling me
‘bout the state of the nation
But I can’t hear what they say cause I can’t get the station

I heard a gun shot last night
It went in one ear and out the other
I’m only interesting when I’m alone

tada ta da ta TA DA DA DA
TADA tada ta ta